I love Sleep, I want it back!

Just thought I would write a little blurb of an update regarding my little "miracle." So she started teething about three weeks ago. She has baan up all night every night for three weeks straight. Sean and I walk around with circles under our eyes every day! Finally one tooth popped through on Saturday.. Yay, finally! But we still have one little stinker that won't pop the skin. Therefore, we are still extremely sleep deprived! BUT.. last night I decided I HAVE to try everything I can to help her sleep. Sooo, I gave her a long bath, dug up a big box fan, gave her some ibuprofin and started her nightly ritual. After nursing and rocking her for an hour (I know I need to get her to go to sleep on her own but I am tired of the battle.) I tried putting her down at least 5 times and she woke up screaming. Finally, in desperation I swaddled her super tight (she was fighting me) and bounced her to sleep. Then mmmm, she went down. With the box fan making some nice loud white noise, I hoped for the best. While tucking myself in to bed at about 11, I heard her fuss and I prayed so hard that she would go back to sleep. She did. Guess what!! I woke up at seven for work and the little pumpkin was still sleeping! Then when I left at 7:30, she was STILL sleeping SOUNDLY! This may not be the start to a full nights sleep on a regular basis but I have to say, I feel great today! I love the little cherib.

(Sean is the one that gets up with her at night when she is crying so he was stoked too)

My Little Miracle

8 months ago a miracle happened. Kayla was born (she is only 10 minutes old in this picture). Since then my life has never been the same. Instead of arriving home from work and thinking about how hungry I am I now grab Kayla and make sure she is fed first. Rather than planning out a Saturday full of errands, a movie, and staying up late, I am thinking about Kayla's schedule. Now, when I see a newborn, it is not just another baby but I can now see the miracle in every baby. A baby is a lot if work, I won't lie. No longer are my nights mine, but hers. I have no choice about how much sleep I will get. But who could have even known the happiness that came from bringing a new life in to the world. Every smile, every hug, every time I hold her when she sleeps, I melt in to my realm of bliss. There is nothing like it. Nothing.

Lip Sucker

I should totally be in bed right now, as should this sweet little angel in my arms. You know I have recently come to realize that there are far too many "shoulds" in life. I am constantly reminding myself that, the more "shoulds" I add to my daily thinking, the less content I become. Instead, we must focus on what "is." Focus on the things that make our lives whole.

So Kayla has started sucking on her top lip. It is one of the funniest things I have ever seen. Sean and I laugh so hard so I thought all of you might enjoy it as well.

What a little joy.

I must apologize to all for the lack of contact I have given as of late. Working full time, mothering, taking care of all the demands life throws my way has been kicking my butt. I truly love you all and think of you often!