Birthdays.....

So there is a lot that crosses my mind when I come on to another birthday. I remember the excitement I would feel to be having a birthday as a child. I remember how exciting it was to be TEN, because finally I had to use ALL of my fingers to show my age.
Well. That was then. This is now. Now that I have run out of fingers and toes to show my age, it's not quite as exciting.
Now birthdays bring feelings of anxiety, that soon I will be too old to have the six kids I have always wanted, that I will run out of time to get my master's degree, that I will have to walk my youngest children to kindergarten using a cane, and I might never have the same body I did before I had Kayla.
But then when I really think about it, I am not really that old and those are all horribly irrational thoughts.
Nonetheless, I have had, and continue to have a life full of blessings, abundant with beauty, laughter and happiness.